Friday, February 4
today was an exceptionally good day! well, towards the end anyway. let's skip the bit about school [hc] and move straight to where my life really starts. =D guides.. hmm saw mich today for the first time since ya course.. she's gotten really tanned! suddenly everyone's turned sporty except me. ahh well c'est la vie. very few people did testwork today.. and i realise i let a group off too easily.. boo for me. i
must be
much stricter in future! what's my fierce reputation for, after all? their dedication song is yesterday once more. i like it a lot!! =D okay so i like oldies. they sounded pretty good when i closed my eyes..
met jean and van.. did not plan to meet joan but i did anyway. she hasn't changed any! i
told her not to play with my phone because it was running out of batt but she did anyway and my phone died. i know i can be a real nag but i was expecting a few calls! well she followed us down to orchard.. at least she got off at her stop and we continued down to orchard. had a lot of fun crapping away.. sigh i really miss crapping with 4/6 people! just yakking and laughing and whacking each other. and somehow it's really natural to touch each other's arms and shoulders and there won't be anyone raising eyebrows. i can even trumpet my nose in peace! went down to taka to buy dinner and headed up to van's house. i like her pool, it's so cool! hee rhymes. and i like her float too! i didn't bring my swimsuit so i just floated around in my teeshirt and shorts. we clamboured on the float and paddled around.. and did all manner of silly things with the float.. van is really strong! i never realised she had such a lot of lean muscle but i guess that's from ballet. jean and i are typical pe slackers. haha. showered off and ate dinner by the pool.. really fun yakking about everything and anything as usual..
somehow i was rather tired during guides.. but while fooling around in the pool and all i sort of came awake.. and kept that mental and emotional high all the way.. only now when i'm at home i'm feeling a bit tired again.. guess i'll go sleep. probably made my cold worse by playing in the water but i don't care it was all worth it..
it's like i depend on my friends to keep me alive inside. when we didn't meet for a week i was withering away inside.. even though jan's in hc too. but it's not the same, we can't be as carefree as we can outside these walls. and if we are too free with ourselves people will talk. already some say i'm les. frankly my dear, i don't give a damn. i'm a fish out of water in school. what's wrong with a chinese being unable to speak mandarin? who said i'm pure chinese anyway? don't believe birth certs, ye fools. we aren't from mainland china sweetie. some of us are brought up differently. which one of us is god enough to judge another? i won't judge your cheena-ness and i hope you won't judge my conventional upbringing. we're from very different worlds. think rgps/smss and think hc.. you'll kind of get why most of our girls go to rj not hc. *shrugs* jan's okay here, she's billingual. i take my cap off to her. some people have it all and some have nothing at all.
it must've been love.
11:11 pm
xoxo
